tatie m

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2011-10-03T10:33:00.001-07:00

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2011-09-19T20:07:00.001-07:00

Alphabet bingo with Andrew & Matthew

2011-06-25T20:50:00.001-07:00

23/365

2011-06-15T12:03:00.001-07:00

23/365, originally uploaded by meliroq.

i always collect the artwork given to me by my nephew & niece.

15 jun 11

bad haircut

2011-06-14T21:56:00.000-07:00

Last Sunday, my husband & I watched a french film, Mon meilleur ami. When I saw Julie Gayet's hairstyle, I realized it was perfect for what I wanted right now. So, I googled images & found exactly what I was looking for.

Today, my hubby & I made appointments to get our new summer 'do's. His point of reference was Steve Zahn, at the premiere for Management. His stylist finished the cut by the time my hair was washed. Unfortunately, he had too much cut from the top. Looked nothing like the pic (which we weren't expecting perfection but at least a close resemblance).

My stylist was combative from the start. She tried to tell me what I wanted was not possible because Julie had a different hair texture than mine. Nor did she believe I'd ever had my hair cropped close to my nape. She began cutting my hair into a hair helmet & seemed annoyed when I pointed out that I wanted my hair cut shorter. I ended up with a blunt, sloppy cut, with horrible texturizing.

To wit, I wanted a style somewhere between these three photos:

And this is what I got :(

24/365

2011-06-14T21:28:00.005-07:00

24/365, originally uploaded by meliroq.

my niece loves her little brother.

14 jun 11

23/365

2011-06-14T21:28:00.003-07:00

23/365, originally uploaded by meliroq.

otto is decadent, especially considering that he's resting his body on his sleepy dad.

13 jun 11

22/365

2011-06-14T21:28:00.001-07:00

22/365, originally uploaded by meliroq.

otto has such an adorable chocolate nose

12 jun 11

I love when something awesome shows up at work.

2011-06-11T14:57:00.001-07:00

Specifically, Je dis aime, by M. J'adore :)

20/365

2011-06-10T13:54:00.001-07:00

20/365, originally uploaded by meliroq.

our car was hit today! thanks, neighbor.

10 jun 11

18/365

2011-06-10T13:53:00.001-07:00

18/365, originally uploaded by meliroq.

this is what we found when we were getting ready for bed. the cat loves having our bed all to herself.

8 jun 11

19/365

2011-06-10T13:51:00.001-07:00

19/365, originally uploaded by meliroq.

lazy cat hanging out in the garage & watching our dachshund walk around

9 jun 11

17/365

2011-06-10T13:47:00.001-07:00

17/365, originally uploaded by meliroq.

yummy vegan cupcakes

7 jun 11

Mines

2011-06-09T18:57:00.001-07:00

only one promo poster for Peter Murphy's new album and it's all mine.

16/365

2011-06-07T13:36:00.001-07:00

16/365, originally uploaded by meliroq.

4th pair of of bensimons, delivered that evening.

6 jun 11

15/365

2011-06-07T13:34:00.001-07:00

15/365, originally uploaded by meliroq.

early summer storm

5 jun 11

14/365

2011-06-07T13:28:00.001-07:00

14/365, originally uploaded by meliroq.

rain drops on our backyard flowers

4 jun 11

*I missed my 13th photo. Not because of superstition, nope. Because Friday was so busy, I didn't have a free moment to take a photo :(

12/365

2011-06-07T13:26:00.001-07:00

12/365, originally uploaded by meliroq.

the lunch my husband thoughtfully prepared for me on my day off, complete with apple cider & herbes de provence vinaigrette.

2 jun 11

11/365

2011-06-07T13:23:00.001-07:00

11/365, originally uploaded by meliroq.

my lazy cat, hanging out in our bed

1 jun 11

10/365

2011-06-07T13:19:00.001-07:00

10/365, originally uploaded by meliroq.

beaumont & panchito enjoying the sun

31 may 11

elemental surprise

2011-06-06T19:23:00.001-07:00

Yesterday, when I left work and headed towards my car, I saw 3 Honda Elements (including my own-which was there first!)lined up. It caused a chuckle.

representin'

2011-06-05T16:45:00.001-07:00

display seen in barnes & noble.

aubrie has a new buddy

2011-06-04T20:21:00.001-07:00

Aubrie gets to cuddle with one of the puppies a customer brought in.

precious cargo

2011-06-04T20:17:00.001-07:00

a customer let me watch over their puppies while they shopped.

9/365

2011-05-30T20:36:00.001-07:00

9/365, originally uploaded by meliroq.

Caught my chihuahua/shih-tzu mix, Panchito Chang, mid-chuff.

30 may 11

8/365

2011-05-29T17:26:00.003-07:00

8/365, originally uploaded by meliroq.

my favorite flower: dahlia

29 may 11

7/365

2011-05-29T17:26:00.001-07:00

7/365, originally uploaded by meliroq.

otto, resting with his nose in one of his favorite toys.

28 may 11

6/365

2011-05-29T17:25:00.001-07:00

6/365, originally uploaded by meliroq.

otto, waiting for someone to play with him. 27 may 11

vegan jalapeno soyrizo pizza

2011-05-29T15:27:00.001-07:00

courtesy of Whole Foods.

makeover!

2011-05-26T20:38:00.000-07:00

Lately, I've been in a rut with my makeup. Normally, it's just the same ol' brown/nude shades on my eyes with a pop of color on my lips. Last month, I received an email from Sephora that offered complimentary makeovers to V.I.B's (Very Important Beauty Insider) during the month of May. Ready for a change of pace, I booked an appointment, hoping to get a few ideas for new color.

I decided, when I arrived for my appointment, to opt for a summery yet natural look. Something I could wear during the day. I also tend to use natural, organic make up as much as possible. Definitely nothing with animal by-products. In hindsight, I should have prefaced that I wanted only vegan products to the makeup artist. Just stating organic & natural wasn't specific enough. Though she did a good job of choosing the colors,& her heart was in the right place, I found out after the session that most of the products she used on me were not vegan. She used Josie Maran & Urban Decay cosmetics with Super by Perricone skin products.

First things first, she had me remove my tinted moisturizer so we could start fresh. Then, she applied Super Detox Elixir to my face which was followed with Super Daylight Savings moisturizer and Super Bright Eyed eye cream. On my lips, she used Super Lush Lips conditioning balm (felt amazing but has beeswax).

Once the skin was prepped, she used Josie Maran Argan Primer Mist followed by Urban Decay De-Slick in a Tube for my T-Zone. She then applied Josie Maran Argan Illuminizer (which contains carmine as a coloring agent) for a bit of glow. Afterwards, a foundation was used in the form of Josie Maran Argan Tinted Moisturizer in Linen.

Now, I usually apply concealer & powder after I apply my base but Heather did my eye makeup first, stating that mistakes were easier to clean up. So, she proceeded to apply my eye makeup. Everything used was from a palette by Josie Maran, except for the mascara, which was a new one by Urban Decay, Cannonball (which has beeswax). Oh, and the palette, which had such beautiful soft shades, contained lanolin oil. Lanolin oil!!! For someone who claims to have an eco-conscious cosmetics company, I find it hard to believe that carmine & lanolin oil are being added to the products. But, I digress...

Heather applied Urban Decay Eye Shadow Primer Potion and suggested we apply the lighter shades first. Mostly, because it's best to build the color on, as opposed to starting with the dark shades, in which case it's harder to add the light color without changing the dark. And here I've been starting with the dark! Good to know.

She then used the dark brown color as my eyeliner, by dipping a wet brush into it (the same color was also used to fill in my brows and to stipple in the contour in my eyes). Under my eyes, she finally applied Josie Maran Blend Concealer in Sand (which has lanolin oil). She added a pop of color with a vivid blue eyeshadow, Urban Decay's Haight, underneath my lower lashes and over the brown liner. She then used a shimmery sage from the Josie Maran palette to blend the blue and brown together.

Once the eyes were done, Heather applied Josie Maran Argan Pressed Powder to my face followed by Josie Maran Argan Bronzing Powder. Which are both vegan! The color on my cheeks was another Josie Maran product, Argan Cream Blush in Sunset. Too bad it also contains lanolin oil.

The finishing touch was a lip stain topped off with a nude gloss, both by Josie Maran. I've used both of the products before, just in darker shades. The lip stain, in Tango, is gorgeous but in my experience, it didn't last very long. I had one, in Flamenco, and it dried up within a month. I love the shade of gloss she used, Optimism, but am not sure if it's vegan.

All in all, I do love the finished look. And, as much as I wanted to buy everything, the beeswax, lanolin, and carmine in certain items that prevented me from doing so.

my usual look

my new summer look

5/365

2011-05-26T18:33:00.001-07:00

5/365, originally uploaded by meliroq.

sold! trying on an outift at anthropologie

26 may 11

4/365

2011-05-26T18:30:00.003-07:00

4/365, originally uploaded by meliroq.

i really love my french lavender plant.

25 may 11

3/365

2011-05-26T18:30:00.001-07:00

3/365, originally uploaded by meliroq.

purchase of the day: eclectic stack of music

24 may 11

2/365

2011-05-23T12:22:00.001-07:00

Sadly, this is the only pic I took today. Something I stumbled across by accident. Frightening, no?

Also, this was taken with my phone, hence the shoddy quality.

who remembers this season?

2011-05-23T12:21:00.001-07:00

I haaaaated when I was compared to the Melissa in the show

1/365

2011-05-22T21:16:00.001-07:00

1/365, originally uploaded by meliroq.

I've been thinking about doing this for some time. Mostly so that I'll be forced to get out of the house & look for things to photograph. I'm not really applying a rigid set of rules to this, just taking bits & pieces I've googled. I don't think I'll be joining any groups, either. I just want to see how this first year turns out.

The first photo is of my bike, complete with new wicker basket. It's high time I started biking on a regular basis.

a drawing by Caleigh

2011-04-17T13:33:00.001-07:00

For her tatie :)

unleashed dog in truck

2011-04-10T14:01:00.001-07:00

Hope he doesn't jump

new plants

2011-04-06T16:47:00.001-07:00

Can't wait to get these in the ground

lady bugs for sale

2011-04-06T16:42:00.001-07:00

<3

2011-04-06T16:02:00.001-07:00

me & buddha

2011-04-06T15:41:00.001-07:00

giant basset

2011-04-06T15:40:00.003-07:00

mark & a dachshund statue

2011-04-06T15:40:00.001-07:00

having too much fun at the nursery

2011-04-06T15:39:00.001-07:00

Pretty :)

2011-04-06T15:37:00.001-07:00

Love love love gazing balls

Cuey tortilla chips, ftw :)

2011-03-28T18:07:00.001-07:00

I love when the bag is full of these.

Les fleurs!

2011-03-28T17:35:00.001-07:00

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2011-03-28T17:29:00.001-07:00

Spring is here!

Um...no

2011-03-03T18:32:00.001-08:00

Some things are just not meant to be combined.

Vegan noms!

2011-03-03T18:17:00.001-08:00

Whole foods actually moved all this to the front of the store, next to the produce.

Sidnarb!

2011-03-03T16:55:00.001-08:00

This made me think of you.

Bad pun

2011-02-28T16:38:00.001-08:00

Dachshund notepad!

2011-02-08T17:43:00.001-08:00

Too cute

Bulldog dishtowels, ftw!

2011-02-08T17:40:00.001-08:00

Caleigh & Brady

2011-02-05T17:52:00.001-08:00

Yum

2011-02-05T13:08:00.001-08:00

Too bad there aren't vegan optios

Nice

2011-02-04T20:44:00.001-08:00

Because it's so hard to push things back.

I hate having to leave my furkids :(

2011-01-24T13:28:00.001-08:00

Zombies need love, too

2011-01-21T16:58:00.001-08:00

Disco ball & ceramic balloon animal

2011-01-21T16:31:00.001-08:00

I secretly want that disco ball. Not bad for $50.

Sweet potato pancakes!

2011-01-21T15:34:00.001-08:00

I need a vegan version of these stat!

Kawaii

2011-01-21T15:13:00.001-08:00

These bags are adorable

goals & intentions 2011

2011-01-18T21:16:00.000-08:00

I decided not to write down resolutions this year. Instead, I've set up a few goals. One is to read at least 52 books this year, which should average one a week. The other main goal is to start a home gym. I'm sick of working out at public gyms. The home gym is going to be a work in progress for a while, mostly because we are trying to do it as frugally as possible. The third is about reducing factors that cause me unnecessary stress, though I think the first two goals will go a good way towards helping me.

As for the first goal, I set up the challenge via goodreads. I've borrowed & purchased several books to get me started. Right now, I'm on the first book: Jean de Florette/Manon of the Springs by Marcel Pagnol. I also have the original French version of Jean de Florette to read once I'm done with the English versions. I'll post as I start each new book.

For the second goal, I'm thinking of starting another blog for it as Mark had an idea of tracking our progress & results from working out at home. I've already purchased the beginning equipment: a stability ball, 2 sets of dumbbells, 2 medicine balls, a resistance band, and a cushioned floor mat. Eventually, we'd like to add a push-up stand that incorporates a push-up and triceps dip bar. Not to mention a good adjustable bench (we're using the stability ball in the meantime), a couple of jump ropes, and a set of adjustable dumbbells. Last on the list would be some barbells. All in good time.

What about the large things?

2011-01-18T17:51:00.001-08:00

What happened to common courtesy?

2011-01-16T16:51:00.001-08:00

Is it too much to ask that you NOT leave your cart behind my fucking car?

Cute candy bowl

2011-01-16T16:26:00.001-08:00

Want!

Otto's doppelganger

2011-01-16T16:23:00.001-08:00

Valentine's day card seen at Target

strangers need to stfu

2010-12-04T10:23:00.000-08:00

I'm still really annoyed about this incident from last night.

Some stranger said I was one of those "glass is half-empty" type of people & I totally wanted to knock him out. WTF does he know about my life? Just because I didn't laugh at his stupid jokes and respond cheerfully to his snarky pleasantries? He kept digging the hole even deeper the longer I dealt with him. Finally, I had to tell him I was offended being judged by someone who never knew me.

It's just as bad as strangers who tell me to smile more. One, butt the fuck out. Two, I smile if something calls for one. I hate fake smiles. Reminds me of what Dwight Schrute, from "The Office", said about smiles.

" I never smile if I can help it. Showing one's teeth is a submission signal in primates. When someone smiles at me, all I see is a chimpanzee begging for its life. "

*This was in the 2006 episode, "Conflict Resolution".

caleigh turns 5!

2010-11-24T12:13:00.001-08:00

Scan 103270001, originally uploaded by meliroq.

My niece, Caleigh, turns five years old today. Yesterday, my husband and I took her out for a fun pre-birthday celebration. We all had a blast.

Every day I spend with her is special and it's been so awesome to see her grow into a lovely young girl. I'm the luckiest tatie ever :)

Etienne Daho-Le grand sommeil (remix) (vidéo)

2010-11-23T00:56:00.000-08:00

This remix video is pretty awesome but will never replace the original version.

Étienne.........sigh.

quand tu est la

2010-11-23T00:07:00.000-08:00

Fun remix of Sylvie's classic song, complete with Étienne Daho. She looks good for her age, non?

beauty & brows

2010-11-08T01:01:00.001-08:00

In order to save money and start rebuilding our savings account, some things I'm having to tighten up on are in the beauty department.

For example, I used to get my eyebrows waxed twice a month. With tip, that's approximately $50 a month. And that's not counting when it's time to have my upper lip waxed. Then, my esthetician's prices went up when she achieved a higher tier in her field. So, now I had to see if could make it to once a month. I hate having to wait that long but, believe it or not, my esthetician prefers what that amount of time gives her to work with. Bangs keep the overgrown brows hidden though it still drives me crazy during the last week. The best time is a few hours after the brows have been waxed and the redness has gone away. Makes me feel put-together :)

Haircuts are a different story. I've pledged myself not to cut my hair for another year. I want to see where that takes me.

I use a lot of various beauty aids to maintain what I have. I've tried all sorts of products and have decided that certain pricey items are overrated. Keeping in mind, everything has to be vegan & free of petro-chemicals. The photo is from a recent trip to Whole Foods, where I ended up spending $53 for everything shown. There's still a bit more for my routine but I'm just sticking to what's in the photo. Also, I'm in the process of cutting things out & paring the routine down. I'll save my make up drawer for another post.

* All-over moisturizing & nighttime face moisturizer calls for coconut oil. I tried using olive oil on my face but it felt too heavy. Cost: $6.99

* For eye make up remover, I usually use apricot kernel oil but decided to try grapeseed oil this time. Cost: $4.99

* Daily moisturizer calls for one with SPF & oil-free. I prefer Alba Sea Moss Moisturizer. Cost $14.99

* New Coffe Berry with Hemp Oil eye moisturizer from Skin Organics (and doubles as a lip moisturizer). Cost: $11.99

For the last year, I've been using Aveda's Green Science Firming Eye Creme. While I think it's a great product, $45 is a bit pricey. I have also used their Tourmaline Charged Eye Creme but that is still over $30 for a tube. I saw this new product line, Skin Organics, at Whole Foods last week and was very intrigued. Most of the line is vegan and natural. I hope it works out. The price is definitely easier to deal with than the others but I know I would still purchase the Aveda products if this balm doesn't work out. I don't like skimping on my moisturizers...

*Toothpaste is a bit pricier than the stuff at Target but we prefer Jason's Sea Fresh over any other we've used before. Cost: $4.99

* I'm pretty picky about hand soaps, especially the way they smell. We've been using this one, by Avalon Organics, for a few years now & I love it. Cost: $4.99

Siouxsie & The Banshees "Dazzle"

2010-10-26T00:36:00.000-07:00

This song always makes me think of my sleepovers with Lisa, back when we were in high school. Classic. This song still moves me.

max

2010-10-21T01:32:00.001-07:00

File0074-pola, originally uploaded by meliroq.

Some refer to it as an "angelvesary" but all I know is today makes it five years since you left us.

While the pain has receded, it still lies beneath the surface.

The moment Mark set you into my arms, my life changed forever. You will never be forgotten, Max.

one year ago today: les halles & rue montorgueil

2010-10-17T15:29:00.001-07:00

Brandi & I spent our last Saturday in Paris by taking the Metro to Les Halles. Underwhelmed & feeling claustrophobic there, we left and decided to stroll wherever our feet took us. We passed some interesting streets and finally stumbled onto the rue Montorgueil.

There were so many lovely shops & markets on rue Montorgueil. we decided to rest, as the rain came down, and have a small meal in a little café. Complete with vin chaud :)

Pic summary:
1) a couple kissing on the escalators out of Les Halles
2) one of the many streets & shops we encountered on our walk
3) on the rue Montorgeuil
4) the vitrine of a boulangerie on rue Montorgueil
5) vin chaud at the café
6) an unsettling display at the boucherie
7) a yummier looking display on the rue Montorgueil
8) a huge display of flavored tofus at the local bio-coop.
9) me, acting the tourist
10) a cool haircut, as seen in a salon's window, near St-Germain-des-Prés

one year ago today: notre dame, tuileries, louvre, & the champs-élysées

2010-10-16T11:02:00.000-07:00

One year ago today, Brandi and I spent the day walking through some of the biggest sights in Paris. First, we took the Metro to Notre Dame and went inside the church. After an awe-inspiring visit there, we walked around Notre Dame & found the little park behind the church. Which afforded lots of photo ops & silliness on the swing and spinner.

From Notre Dame, we walked to the Louvre. We didn't visit the museum but went down below where we found a fancy WC, a gift shop, and a Virgin Megastore. I didn't do any shopping except for at Virgin. Lots of books & cds :)

After we took lots of photos outside of the Louvre, we decided to walk through the Tuileries. While walking, we spotted a few little kiosks selling food & beverages. We kept seeing signs for vin chaud & decided that we needed to try some....and soon!

Once we got to the Champs-Élysées, we found a nice sidewalk café (complete with outdoor heaters) and sat down. Like the frites avec moutarde, Brandi & I fell in love with vin chaud. We rested for a bit, enjoying the ambiance, then walked over to the Arc de Triomphe. Unfortunately, we didn't go inside but the view was gorgeous nonetheless.

a year ago today: a cruise on the seine

2010-10-15T12:05:00.001-07:00

On October 2009, Brandi and I spent our day walking through Rue Cler, the Champs de Mars , all the way to the Quai Branly to ride on the Bateaux Parisiens & snack on another helping of frites avec moutarde. It was a gorgeous day.

strolling through the rue cler, searching for a petit bateau shop.

lovely foliage as we made our way to the quai branly

the seine, as seen from the boat

one year ago today

2010-10-08T12:13:00.001-07:00

I can't believe a year has passed since my first trip to Nice.

On my last day in Nice, I decided to spend the day at the beach. Unfortunately, it was windy & cloudy. Still beautiful, though.

j'adore michel

2010-09-26T11:05:00.000-07:00

I never get tired of this song, Que Marianne était jolie, & I love watching this performance.

my new favorite jingle

2010-08-22T23:17:00.000-07:00

in that I can't get this out of my head. It's so damn catchy.

caleigh dans la plage

2010-08-12T12:45:00.000-07:00

My niece, Caleigh, building sand castle at the beach.

caleigh aime le carrousel

2010-08-12T12:44:00.000-07:00

My niece, Caleigh, enjoying a ride on the carousel at the Santa Cruz Beach Boardwalk.

trente sept

2010-08-04T10:48:00.000-07:00

<--card from my husband

Yesterday was my 37th birthday. Normally, I like to make a bit of a fuss but this year I wanted the day to be low-key. For example, last year we went to Santa Monica on my birthday. Yesterday, we hung around the house & watched 80's movies. I actually preferred that, believe it or not. A nice change after all the drama & upheaval of the last few years.

Mark started off the day by letting me sleep in & making me breakfast in bed. Then, we watched some fun movies from the 80's while he did my hair. In the evening, he made me a delicious dinner of seitan burritos with fresh salsa. We didn't have a cake this time, instead Mark baked a coconutty bar. Very yum.

No gifts this year but Mark takes such good care of me throughout the year, anything else just seems selfish. He does everything he can to make my life easier and I'm forever grateful. Plus, I kind of had an early birthday present when I was able to spend 8 days in Nice, in June. Such an excellent vacation!

And, because it's now a tradition, I went outside to take a birthday photo. I've doing that every year since 1995, Except for 1996, when I had a cold on my birthday. It was a rainy summer that year, in Seattle.

Interesting how the older I become, the more I cherish peace and quiet. Such a relief.

<--"official" 37th birthday photo

otto!!!!

2010-07-31T23:30:00.001-07:00

Otto, my youngest dachshund, followed me outside the other day. Here are 3 consecutive photos I took of him.

d'oh....

2010-07-30T09:52:00.001-07:00

DSC01335, originally uploaded by meliroq.

My poor husband was left with a lopsided goatee after the electric clippers I was using died in the process of trimming it. I tried to use the scissors-over-comb technique to blend the rest in but it looked weird all day until I could finally correct it.

I might need to invest in a new trimmer. This one is 8 years old & I can't find the auxiliary cord.

my new favorite

2010-07-26T00:12:00.000-07:00

Today, I finally decided to import the 40+ cds I had sitting in the office. Less than half I intend to keep, as I find that cds take up too much space when I never use them.

I bought 10 or so cds when I went to Nice last month & imported just a few while I was still there. Flash forward to now & I have finally gotten around to importing the rest. One is a cd I happened to choose on a lark, Negresse Blanche.
I'd never heard of this artist but I liked his cheeky cover:

I figured if he could pose, nonchalantly, with a naked woman behind him, then the music had to be, at the very least, interesting. One of my more inspired finds, if I do say so.

It took a couple listens, plus watching some videos on Youtube. Now, I am officially hooked. Here are a couple of videos I found on youtube:

This is a duet he did with -M- (aka Mathieu Chedid, another fave):

And, one of Arthur H performing "Adieu Goodbye".
Siiiiigh <3

new apron

2010-07-20T15:47:00.001-07:00

DSC01312, originally uploaded by meliroq.

Yesterday, I received my handmade apron from Anna & Jake. It's lovely, yes? This is the "turquoise, brown, and pink flower" fabric.

It wasn't what I originally wanted as my first choice was sold out but I love this fabric all the same. Especially knowing the story behind the aprons. You can read all about it at Anna's blog: http://theaproncampaign.blogspot.com/

Get well soon, Jake!!

ego boost

2010-07-18T23:26:00.000-07:00

<- asleep with Otto, my little dachshund

This morning, I woke to hear my husband tell me that he watched me while I slept. He claimed not to have spotted any wrinkles or lines in my face. Which he found amazing, as I'm 2 weeks from turning 37. He said he felt like he was "The Picture of Dorian Gray" but he preferred that he be the one with the flaws.

Somehow, I found this all very touching. The flatterer ;)

joyeux quatorze juillet!

2010-07-14T11:11:00.001-07:00

DSC06776-pola, originally uploaded by meliroq.

It's Bastille Day.

I wish there were some celebrations close by. Mostly, I just wish I was back in France.

Bonne fête!!

happy 14th birthday, my sweet Maxmillian

2010-07-04T19:00:00.001-07:00

with my beloved Max, in happier times (8/99)

Five years ago, today, you were still alive. You would've been 14 years old today. I miss you so much. It's hard to realize you've been gone for nearly half a decade. Sometimes, it seems like you're still here.

I found this quote on a memorial website & it made me think of you. It accurately describes how I feel about your death. I wasn't ready for it then & I don't think I ever will be. Rest in peace, my heart.

The moment that you died, my heart split in two.
One side filled with memories. The other died with you.
I often lay awake at night, when the world is fast asleep.
And take a walk down memory lane, with tears upon my cheeks,
Remembering you is easy, I do it every day.
But missing you is heartache, that never goes away.
I hold you tightly within my heart, and there you will remain.
Life has gone on without you, But never will be the same.

Author Unknown

things I get in the mail 5

2010-02-20T15:32:00.000-08:00

I received the ideeli.com French Connection order yesterday. Today's mail brought two packages from sellers on etsy.com.

I wore the Tim boatneck top yesterday & it was perfect. My new necklace, with the combined birthstones of Mark's & my own, is lovely. I'm wearing it right now. Oh, and same thing with the new earrings. I <3 new things.

french connection tops from ideeli.com

I would post a link but ideeli only runs these deals for a day or two. These shirts are no longer available.

amethyst & peridot "lil treasure' necklace by shijewels on etsy.com

from etsy.com/shijewels

sterling silver double beaded hoop earrings by irisjewelry on etsy.com

etsy.com/irisjewelry

things I get in the mail 4

2010-02-18T11:33:00.001-08:00

Packages from Petit Bateau & Etsy.com, oh my.

another marinière & a tank top (maternity? what!)

from petitbateau.us
2. petitbateau.us

I'm always appreciative when my etsy.com orders show up in fancy packaging. It's disappointing when they don't. This package wasn't a disappointment & the earrings were fabulous. I wore them the same day!

from etsy.com/destinyscreations

things i get in the mail 3

2010-02-14T16:42:00.000-08:00

Finally received my kitty magnets & Petit Bateau order yesterday. I think I might need to order more magnets & another marinière top. I couldn't believe how soft it was. After waiting months to find this top, I was not disappointed!

I love the way alliebeans packages her items. This is my second order from her & I bought more magnets, including the large 'François'

from etsy.com/alliebeans
2. etsy.com/alliebeans

the long-awaited Petit Bateau marinière sweater & a heart tank top, in packaging that looked like a gift. In time for Valentine's Day ;)

I also received this booklet (with stickers) from PeTA. Apparently, I'm still on their mailing list.

things i get in the mail

2010-02-13T10:00:00.000-08:00

Actually, I had 3 deliveries yesterday. Four, if you include the package for my husband, which I don't. I'm expecting another one today, from Petit Bateau.

handmade silver 'Circle Within' earrings by shijewels, on etsy.com, including a complimentary packet of tea!

from etsy.com/shijewels

handmade silver peridot drop earrings from CocoCottage on etsy.com

from etsy.com/cococottage

and, these finally arrived after being on backorder for a month: Keen Roatan water shoes, which I bought for the Nice trip

from llbean.com

je vous presente bambou et rossi

2010-02-11T18:07:00.000-08:00

Since we moved out of the MIL's house, we have had 2 cats adopt us. We still haven't taken to the vet as we're getting them used to trusting us at this time. I plan on taking them soon. The first one was Bambou, who decided she wanted to live with us shortly after I returned from my trip to Paris last October.

Bambou a.k.a Bamboozles

Now, there's also Rossi, another stray cat who's been here since we moved in last August. My husband used to call "Scary" because of this unsettling mew he had. Then he was dubbed "Flopsy" because of his ears. Now, Mark prefers the name "Rossi" because of the cream coloring on his face looks similar to a helmet worn by Valentino Rossi. I'm going to assume he means this helmet.

Rossi

online shopping = fun

2010-02-11T16:36:00.000-08:00

Another thing I wanted to do on this blog was post various items I purchase online. Since I began taking the photos back in August 2009, I figured I'd just group those all in to one big post. After this, then I can post as they come. What's interesting is this is just a sampling of stuff I bought online. I didn't think to photograph everything that came in.

August purchases:
===============

my first laptop: a macbook pro, complete with 360 gb.

from apple.com

the box of the Novacas (Marcella) shoes I ordered

from mooshoes.com

the Neuaura 'Elimia'

from shophumanitaire.com

revisiting 80's nostalgia by wearing a t-shirt of my first favorite band: Duran Duran

from 80stees.com

a new Herbivore hoodie for my hubby

from herbivoreclothing.com

December purchases:
================

cute "French" couple magnets by JooSweetie on etsy.com

from etsy.com/JooSweetie

set of four cat magnets & a doggie coin purse by alliebeans on etsy.com

from etsy.com/alliebeans
2. etsy.com/alliebeans

three French films: A Christmas Tale, Danton, and Made in the U.S.A.

from criterion.com
2. criterion.com
3. criterion.com

January 2010 purchases:
===============

Serge Gainsbourg box set & biography

from amazon.com
2. amazon.com

lovely Beckoning Creatures tunic by plumpprettysugar on etsy.com

from etsy.com/plumpprettysugar

Cabin Cuddler & door alarm for my upcoming trip to Nice this summer:

from magellans.com
2. magellans.com

raffia fedora I bought for the Nice trip

from athleta.com

"to-go" stuff like Sigg water bottle, bamboo utensils, Wrap-n-Mat, and a cotton string bag

from reusablebags.com
2. reusablebags.com
3. reusablebags.com
4. reusablebags.com

February purchases:
=============

another stop at reusablebags.com for a large Wrap-N-Mat, steel drinking straws, Chico bag, and a bamboo flatware set for the hubby

from reusablebags.com
2. reusablebags.com
3 reusablebags.com

handmade peridot (my birthstone) posts by dadamietz on etsy.com

from etsy.com/dadamietz

2005: first blog entries (from myspace)

2010-02-10T08:33:00.000-08:00

I've decided to finally delete my myspace profile but not until after I've transferred my blog entries here. Not all will make it over here & some have already been posted simultaneously. These are all the entries from 2005. The AR/vegan-related ones have been transferred to my other blog. I've included the comments, in italics, at the end of each original entry.

It's Friday-big whoop
9 Sept 2005 Friday

Current mood: bored

Just hangin' out with my hubby and 4 dogs. Glamorous life, I know. Beaumont, our basset hound, had surgery yesterday and has been moping around the house ever since. I don't blame him. The vet had to take out a "fatty lymphoma" from under his left armpit. It was benign so Yay!

Old guy just isn't getting around the way he used to though :( I was soothing him yesterday and, as he slept partly on my lap, I thought of all the abandoned pets in the South.

I have 4 very spoiled dogs and couldn't think of leaving them behind, if faced with an oncoming hurricane and/or evacuation. Shudder. My heart goes out to all those who suffered through Hurricane Katrina.
20:29

Stranded/abandoned pets in NO
10 Sept 2005 Saturday

Current mood: pissed off

I was reading my e-mail and I received an alert from PETA that the so-called authorities are now shooting pets that have been abandoned! Apparently this is "procedure". It's appalling, simply put.

According to the article, it's also illegal to abandon a companion animal, under Louisiana state law. It's under RS 14:102:1, section d, "Abandons any animal. A person shall not be considered to have abandoned an animal if he delivers to an animal control center an animal he found running at large." So looting was ok, understandably, for food and other necessary items and the cops looked the other way. But making people leave their animals behind to fend for themselves?! So they can be shot, starved or worse?

The government has failed, on so many levels, in this tragedy. It's scary to see how those less fortunate have been treated. Left to die, while the stupid politicos wre patting each other on the backs.

Okay. So, I'm off my soapbox. I was just so shaken by that e-mail. I've already called and written those in charge, to add my voice to the outrage. A donation is on the way.

I am looking down, at the foot of my chair, and all my dogs have surrounded me, just dozing off. I love their doggie mojo and I am fortunate to have them in my life. I'd die before I let anything happen to them.
10:26

Monday
12 Sept 2005 Monday

Current mood: calm

Woke up this morning with a mouthful of Panchito fur. Not my preferable way of greeting the day but not the worst. None of the other dogs lay that close to my face, when they're in our bed, but Panchito likes to be up close and personal. In fact, as I type this, he's right here slipping beneath the computer desk (his favorite spot). He's my little shadow and I encourage it.

I'm glad that the weather has finally cooled off. I love the fact that there's the scent of autumn in the air. Mark and I enjoyed the pleasant weekend and made a delicious vegan soup. We hung out with the dogs, watched tv, and played cards (I finally won the set). We stayed up late last night, watching all our fave tv shows. "Breaking Bonaduce" was kinda harsh and uncomfortable to watch as was "My Fair Brady". Yet, we find ourselves glued to the television, caught up in others' lives.

Time to walk the dogs, I promised them they'd get regular walks now that the unbearable heat of summer is gone. Woo-hoo. Maybe we'll all lose some of the poundage we gained over the last few months.
11:31

Rant
14 Sept 2005 Wednesday

Current mood: annoyed

I'm addicted to those stupid gossip blogs and the whole "Brangelina" thing has been bothering me since it began. I don't know why, what with current events and the fact that I have a life. But, whenever I see their photos or hear about them I just want to scream. I guess I'm on "Team Aniston" and I know there's two sides to every story but it's maddening.

Maybe it's the fact that Angelina had the gall to say she would never sleep with a married man because her father cheated on her mom and she knows what it felt like, blahblahblah. I guess engaged men don't fall into that category? If I remember correctly, Billy Bob Thornton, whom she met on the set of "Pushing Tin", was engaged to Laura Dern when he and Angelina hooked up. Gross.

And this whole thing with the adopting of foreign babies and being a Goodwill Ambassador is really grating. How big of her to adopt! Why isn't she having her own babies? It's kinda insulting to someone who can't have their own kids to see someone like her adopting without having her own.

I know that it's her body and her decision but it's irritating. ARRGGGHHHH! Whatever! I'm just ranting. I just think they need to admit they're together instead of being so fucking secretive.

Man, I just like my gossip to be fashion mishaps and drunken behavior. I'm off to meditate on more wordly matters. I just wanted that off my chest. Whew.
20:59

I left my heart in San Francisco
18 Oct 2005 Tuesday

Current mood: awake

Mark and I finally went for a trip out of this hellish town. We left Friday and spent nearly 3 days in SF.

It was great to get away and take in the city atmosphere. We walked everywhere or took the street car when the walking got to be too much. I actually didn't do so much shopping, which I nearly always do when in SF. It was nice just to spend time with Mark. The weather couldn't have been more perfect, either.

One day we hope to live right in the city but that is still years away. We looked at some listings and the prices weren't super bad, when you consider what you get in return.

We love the Castro district. Everyone always seem so content as they walk by, lots of doggies on leashes (that made me miss my guys, who were at Grandma's house). We like to eat at Bagdad Cafe whenever we're there and get some coffee at Peet's. Didn't get to go to Herbivore this trip but next time. Mark googled the wrong directions :(

We went to the Franklin Street Vespa dealership and I rode pillion on a Gran Turismo 200. We're planning on getting one this spring, for me, and we wanted to see the Vespas in person. Oh, it was so exhilarating to be on the Vespa. The salesman rode a bit aggressively but I loved it. The scooter was so quiet and smooth...I can't wait to get one!!

After that we headed to the Golden Gate Park, hoping to check out the new DeYoung Museum. Instead, we went to the Golden Gate Bridge which we decided to cross.

Unfortunately, it wasn't as romantic as we thought it would be. Cars whizzing by, breathing in exhaust, a lot of tourists. But, the view was to die for! Mark would get frustrated because I would stop every few feet and look over the bridge and admire the skyline or just take in the boats sailing on the water. The best sight was of a fat seal swimming in the water below the bridge. When we made it to Marin, we turned around and headed back to San Francisco.

Mark drove me to the beach and I ran over to the water and let the tide run over my feet. There were more dogs running around and jumping into the ocean. Mark sat over on a wall just watching while I splashed around in the surf. Too bad we were hungry because I would've stayed on the beach for a few hours. I wished I had brought my bathing suit because the water was so perfect. Seriously, if we weren't headed for the Castro after my little beach trip, I would've jumped in the water with all my clothes on. At the very least, my sore feet were relaxed after letting the foam of the tide wash over them. I loved the feeling of the water being sucked back out to sea and the sand whooshing underneath my feet.

We left the city after 6 pm. I didn't want to go but I missed the dogs something fierce, so it was nice to get back. I can't wait to go back for another trip. I love San Francisco!!

Me, on the Golden Gate Bridge. I'm such a tourist!
13:39

In memory of Max, 7/04/96 - 10/21/05
21 Oct 2005 Friday

Current mood: melancholy

Category: Pets and Animals

My beloved eldest baby died this morning, in my arms. He was only nine years old and we thought he still had many years left to be with us. I don't want to go into the details of his death, just that it was heart failure.

His life was special and he meant the world to me and my husband. He came in to our lives in September 1996, about 2 weeks after we moved back to California from Seattle. Mark didn't want us to have a dog while we lived in the city. He always said, "Wait til we get a house". Well, that didn't go over to well once we got back in Fresno. I was determined to have a red male dachshund and I wanted to name him Maxmillian von Woofenheimer.

Mark and Linda surprised me, one Sunday, with this little wriggling brown puppy (he was not red yet..that was supposed to emerge as he got older) nestled in Linda's arms. My heart melted and I fell in love with him instantly. We were inseperable, Max and I.

During those first few weeks, I would let him sleep close to my heart, so he'd feel secure. I'd diligently get up at 2 or 3 in the morning to let him outside and always took care of him. He didn't like being alone so I stopped working and we would spend our days together.

When he was 8 months old, we brought his sister into our house, a black-and-tan dachshund named Minna. They got along very well but I think that Max sometimes longed for the days when he was the only one. We tried adopting 2 dogs from PetsMart but they challenged Max's stance as alpha-dog and it was too stressful for him. We added Beaumont, a basset hound, in 1998 and Panchito, a chihuahua mix, in 2004. Both as puppies! They looked up to Max and he was the one who mentored them, it seems. Minna was more apt to show them the dark side or cajol them into doing her bidding.

How can I describe what a sweet-natured soul he was? He wasn't the quietest of dogs, always barking at the slightest sound. Even when he played, he barked nonstop. He loved his chew toys, especially squeaky toys. His favorite chase game, though, was the laser beam. He would run around the house barking at the top of his lungs. He could be remarkably dignified and a bit dandy-ish. He loved going on road trips just not the destination. He never liked for us to clip his nails but we hear from the groomer he was always sweet. He could be a bit grouchy, especially if Panchy annoyed him. He was gentle with children, if they approached him nicely. He loved his walks, too. I always loved to see him tear around without his leash on.

Max had a zest for life and he brought his light into my soul. He saved me from wallowing in my depression and made me feel complete. It can be hard, at times, when I think about not being able to have my own children but Max helped ease that pain. He was a strong personality and his untimely death is still shocking. I will always love Max and will never forget the impact that this 19-lb dachshund left in my life. Go in peace, my love.

7:31

Again, I'm so sorry for your loss. He was a good-looking boy. Know that he's in good hands and Coleby will find him and take him in.
Thinking of you,

Nicky
Posted by Lil Lover on [21 Oct 2005 | Friday] - 12:12

I cried after I read this.
Posted by :==: Bellie the Bullie :==: on [21 Oct 2005 | Friday] - 12:30

I'm truly sorry. From what you've written, I feel as if I knew him. That really touched me.
Posted by Caleb Hutchinson on [21 Oct 2005 | Friday] - 15:21

Oh, Melissa, I'm so sorry to hear about your baby. I'm glad that you were there with him until the very end. Hope that you feel better soon.
Posted by ☠brooke☠ on [25 Oct 2005 | Tuesday] - 10:52

. . . . ...aaah cwap,, I never see your blog on my pc stations so

. . .......today is first time I been on mac for while,, jos stop in

. . . . . .tah leave a big ol vegie soy bone for Max,, taste like

. . . . . .chikanix I hear.
Posted by on [25 Oct 2005 | Tuesday] - 22:12

Max came home
27 Oct 2005 Thursday

Current mood: sad

Category: Pets and Animals

Well, we picked up Max's ashes on Tuesday. It was very hard to see all that was left of him was in a ziploc bag. Well, in a ziploc bag that was inside a tin. We plan on finding a nice ceramic container in which to house his ashes. Mark wants something German, specifically.

Mark is keeping the tag that was put in Max's "medium pan" to identify the remains. I don't know if this is ghoulish but I had to open the tin when we got into the car and see what was left of my baby. I didn't mind seeing the powder but it was the tiny flecks of bone that broke me. My once beautiful red dachsund was reduced to ash.

We have no immediate plans to scatter his ashes. It's been a strange week. We get our baby boy back, in ashes, near the beginning of this week and will be ending this week with a new life in our house.

I'm holding on til Saturday morning, when we pick up little Otto. We've been viewing him as Max's heir apparent rather than as a replacement. Max could never be replaced. We will be having a memorial for him soon, I don't when, but it will be soon. That's about it for now. I need to have some quiet reflection.
8:53

Oh My God!!! You people amaze me. After reading your blogs I want to puke. I know you love your animals but remember they ARE ANIMALS not people, and I would bet you don't show humans the same respect you show your precious animals. I read you cannot have children and I'm truly sorry for that, but substituting animals for humans is not healthy. I would bet you compare the loss of this dog to that of a mother losing a child and think people should feel your pain in the same manner. Seek the help of a good psychiatrist and show others the respect they deserve. Get a grip on reality and stop wallowing in self pitty so people can stop avoiding you.
Posted by Mike on [27 Oct 2005 | Thursday] - 19:54

Melissa....
I cried when I read your blog. You have suffered a great loss and my heart goes out to you. As for the previous blog comment.....
What a jerk....this guy has NO heart at all! I feel really sorry for him...he has no compassion for people and their suffering. I guess he feels it's up to him to decide weather or not a persons pain is justified. He is obviously not capable of love period. He certainly showed no love to you in your time of need and it's obvious that he has never had any love for a pet or he would understand what you are going through. Self-righteous, cold hearted, uncompassionate, empty headed.....Now who's unhealthy????
Posted by susie on [28 Oct 2005 | Friday] - 8:19

Because there are mean fuckwads on this planet
27 Oct 2005 Thursday

Current mood: enraged

"Oh My God!!! You people amaze me. After reading your blogs I want to puke. I know you love your animals but remember they ARE ANIMALS not people, and I would bet you don't show humans the same respect you show your precious animals. I read you cannot have children and I'm truly sorry for that, but substituting animals for humans is not healthy. I would bet you compare the loss of this dog to that of a mother losing a child and think people should feel your pain in the same manner. Seek the help of a good psychiatrist and show others the respect they deserve. Get a grip on reality and stop wallowing in self pitty so people can stop avoiding you."
Posted by Mike on Thursday, October 27, 2005 at 20:54

This is Part II (from my inbox), it's a beaut:
"From: Mike Date: Oct 28, 2005 5:41 AM I speak from experience because my wife and I cannot have children, so we adopted and it was the greatest thing we ever did, but first we had to stop feeling sorry for ourselfs and stop making others around us feel as bad as we did. I'm sure by your remarks that most of your family tries to stay away from you, do they live close and hardly ever see you? if so now you know why. Oh, poor me, poor poor me. You are the one that is pathetic."

PART III: "I know how you are because we were there once, you are most likely very self centered and probably talk about YOURSELF to anybody that will listen to the point they want to die on the spot, however they will not say anything to you because of your fragile ego. BTW: Thanks for the english lesson and have a nice day. "

*****I want to always remember the cruelty of people who will shit all over your feelings when they don't know a fucking thing about you and the life you've led.

*****In response to Part II, I laugh heartily. I take what this nobody says, with the smallest grain of salt.

*****Part III was sent to my inbox this afternoon. I'm done with responding to this troll. But I posted it as a continuation of his bullying messages.

Mike needs Jesus.
Posted by :==: Bellie the Bullie :==: on [11 Nov 2005 | Friday] - 13:51

Today we picked up Otto :)
29 Oct 2005 Saturday

Current mood: hopeful

Category: Pets and Animals

After a very long drive, from here to Palmdale, we received our new guy, Otto:

He is quite a handful. Minna, Beaumont, and Panchito are still getting used to him. This picture was taken on the drive home:

I stayed in the back seat during the long drive home. Otto and I bonded immediately :)
I love his stubby chubby paws.
16:12

omg i want one i need to get another one sooo bad im in talks with my mom now!!!
Posted by *Kristen* on [31 Oct 2005 | Monday] - 21:36

An interesting Thanksgiving
30 Nov 2005 Wednesday

Current mood: thankful

This Thanksgiving was our first since we became veg*n and since Max died. We weren't really feeling that festive. So, at 4:32 am, when I received a phone call from my little sister,I knew immediately what was happening. My other sister, Melanie, had gone into labor. She wasn't due til 7 December but the baby was ready!

I rushed to the hospital and stayed there, throughout the day, only leaving when the nurses would get upset because we were breaking their policy on visitors. We were one person over the limit. Big deal.

Anyway, Mom treated Christina and I to the hospital cafeteria "feast" while we awaited the birth of the baby. She finally arrived, fashionably late, at 9:46 pm. She weighed 8 lbs and nearly 4 oz and was 19-3/4" long. I couldn't believe how long her legs were! And when she opened her eyes, I saw myself looking into the eyes of my sister.

I know I'm biased but Caleigh Melissa is the most beautiful baby girl. She was delicate, like a little kitten, after her birth and so tired. She could barely get a cry out, just this little tiny mew. It was heart-breakingly cute.

I have a feeling she's going to be a girly-girl and I can't wait to spoil her :) All said, this was a hopeful Thanksgiving and one I will always be thankful for. Especially since my sister was okay and gave birth to a beautiful and healthy baby.

Here she is, in Uncle Mark's arms, at two days old:

Me, the happy auntie, gazing lovingly at my beautiful niece :)

23:15

I Hope you don't mind me reading your Beautiful blog.I would Just like to say you have a very Beautiful niece she is so perfect.She looks like a lil angel.I'm very happy your sister was o.k and her baby was Healthy. I talk to your sister Christina somewhat she seems very nice and you all seem like such a loving family it's amazing:)

God Bless all of you.
Regina
Posted by on [01 Dec 2005 | Thursday] - 0:06

I want to be a meanstar and

say something smartahs. Bawt

I will get nuked from your friends

list for sure. That and I rarely get to

peek in your bloggies do to my computers

dont like your Safari lay out me thinks. At

least I belive you use safari size tables.

Ooh,, My lord your hands are huge if Caleigh is over

19inchs. Gigantica Hands Melissa WOW. ....

Posted by on [05 Dec 2005 | Monday] - 19:56

Christmas is over! Reflections on 2005
26 Dec 2005 Friday

Current mood: contemplative

Category: Life

This was one of those Christmases to remember. If only because 2005 was an interesting yet chaotic year for us. I think I'll always refer to it as the Year of Firsts.

Let's see....we began the year with a torrential flood in our rental house on 4 January 2005. Every room in that house had, at least, 4 inches of standing water. We essentially lost everything that was on the floor. We then had to move into my mother-in-law's house, for 4 months, while we looked for a house to buy. We had intended to buy a house that year, just not on fast-forward. We finally found one in February but it needed so much work that we didn't move in until April 2005. Escrow closed on 10 March!

This is what we have done so far: we've torn out all the carpets, sinks, toilets, and fireplace and added tile to the kitchen, living room, bathrooms, and entryway, repainted most of the rooms, bought new sinks and fixtures (including toilets), added new light fixtures to the patio and entrance. We still have to paint the exterior, paint the cabinets and bar, buy furniture, add new countertops, re-tile the shower enclosures in both baths, get rid of the carpets we bought and install bamboo floors (in the bedrooms) and tile in the hall and den, and design new landscaping in the front and back (including a fenced dog run). Oh, and that's just a partial list. There are myriad little things left to do but that's time-consuming to type out.

On 25 March 2005, my little sister gave birth to the first baby in our family. Benjamin Isaiah was born on Good Friday. A week later, we found out my middle sister was preggers as well. Caleigh Melissa was born on Thanksgiving.

My niece and nephew celebrated their first Christmas, at my mom's house, yesterday. Caleigh was fine with everything because she's only one-month old. Poor Ben is teething (he has six teeth so far) and sick, so he was not a happy camper.

The summer of 2005 was fairly normal except that I finally received my driver's license. Sixteen years later than I should have but better late than never ;)

We lost our beloved dachshund, Max, unexpectedly on 21 October. This was our first holiday without him, since 1996. We are still mourning him. Mark and I held a brief vigil in his honor last night, listening to "Vincent (Starry Starry Night)".

We brought a new puppy into our lives, on 29 October, another red male dachshund. Otto celebrated his first holidays and seemed to enjoy them. What, with new toys and new foods, and all the company and excitement that accompanies the holidays, he made it through just fine. He gets his final shots during the first week of January and he's officially okay to be in public areas. Which kind of ties in with one of my New Year's Resolutions but that's another blog.

This was also our first holidays without eating meat. I admit we backslid a bit and ate small amounts of dairy and baked goods. There's too much crap to deal with than scrutinize every ingredient. This holiday season is a last hurrah, if you will, of consuming animal-derived products for us. We decided that we'll be as pure as we can, vegan-wise, once 2006 rolls around. Which means bringing our own meals to family functions. Some people think it's ok to have lard or chicken broth in a meal and think we can eat it. Hell no.

Over the summer I ran into my mentor, Parwin, and found out she was opening an Aveda Lifestyle salon in the fall. She asked me to come back, as her assistant, and I said ok. Here we are, in the last week of December, and the salon is nearly a week away from opening. The inspection is set for this Friday. I've been helping her set up the salon as often as I can. It's going to be a beautiful salon, once it's finished. It's a bonus that it happens to be located right across from Sephora. I'm simply looking forward to going back to the beauty biz. I've already been enjoying the classes we've had since November and can't wait for the color technique class in January. Coloring hair was always my favorite thing. Cutting hair.....that's my least favorite.

I didn't get to travel internationally this year but intend to go to Paris next fall. I guess it's ok that I didn't get to go anywhere this year except San Francisco. I spent quite a bit of time there, especially spending time with my oldest buddy in the world, Brandi. Oh for the days of Tivo-ing cheesy reality shows, drinking wine and munching on chocolate, lol!

Below, I've posted two of my favorite photos from Christmas Day.

My sisters and their babies, together for the first time

Ben, reaching out to Caleigh
13:22

2006 Resolutions
30 Dec 2005 Friday

Current mood: pensive

There is much I'd like to be successful in this coming year. I feel motivated to finally get my act together as I've been coddled for far too long, It would be nice to finally be proactive about the direction in which I want to take my life. Some of my goals for this new year are, admittedly, superficial but that's fine. Baby steps.....

I think I'll just list 25 resolutions. Nothing earth-shattering but all easily attainable, with discipline:

1. Walk the dogs every day.
2. Practice yoga and pranas every day, even if it's just for 15 minutes and only Sun Salutations, that's fine.
3. Go to the gym and tone up, everyday.
4. Manage my daily schedule. I suppose this means sitting down and mapping out a 24-hour time wheel (thank you Aveda).
5. Be a better wife.
6. Less self-absorption and more discipline.
7. Ride my bicycle to work once a week.
8. Cut out most animal by-products from my diet. While there's some things I can't do anything about, I want to control whatever I can (i.e NO dairy, eggs, honey, silk, leather, wool, etc).
9. Give more of my resources and time to personal causes (i.e AR, environmental causes, and help for the less fortunate).
10. Spend less time on the computer. Write in a journal instead.
11. Less time watching telly, too.
12. Eat out less often and cook vegan meals.
13. Go on dates with Mark, at least once a month.
14. Learn how to ride a motorcycle and get my license.
15. Stop obsessing over things I can't control.
16. Meditate and take inventory of personal stock everyday.
17. Drive to SF by myself.
18. Less alcohol consumption and more water consumption.
19. Be focused on honing my skills as a stylist.
20. Travel to Paris. Maybe Venice...
21. Get to bed at a decent hour. It's unnatural but it's throwing off my days.
22. Be kinder to Beaumont and Minna. It's not their fault Max died.
23. Cut down on swearing and judgemental tendencies
24. Think postively.
25. Curtail spending habits and put money into savings.

I have great hopes for 2006!
12:48

Bonne année et bonne santé dans 2010

2010-01-01T11:02:00.000-08:00

2009 was a very mixed year for me. In fact, I think it would be fair to say that the first 8 months were really dismal, especially as I was still living at the mil's house. The second my last payment was deposited into my account, Mark set about finding me an apartment. By 20 August, I was in my new place. What made it most bittersweet was that I couldn't bring any of my dogs (they're still living with the mil). I had intended to bring Rory, one of my cats, but he disappeared 2 days before I moved out. We haven't seen him since, even though we reported him as "LOST". I'm heartbroken about it.

Anyway, the move-out was meant to give me space & time to heal but has done the opposite. Sure, I don't have to live the mil nor deal with her myriad passive-aggressive stunts on a daily basis but she is still in my life, albeit indirectly. Moving out has made me realize that , in order for me to move forward, she needs to be out of my life forever. And that will only happen once Mark & I can find a house that will let us bring our furry brood. We are aiming for June of this new year to be reunited with our furkids. Therapy is definitely in order for the two if us.

Also, I am still estranged from my mother & might soon be with my father. I've decided I don't want their half-assed efforts to keep our relationship afloat. I'd rather have them out of my life than that. They have been given far too many chances and they fail every time.

So, yes, you can say 2009 was mostly dealing with family issues and coming to terms with unhealthy relationships. Essentially a continuation of events from 2007 and 2008. I'd like to think that 2009 finally clarified matters and I can lay them to rest in 2010. A new beginning for a new decade, one that will see me enter my 4th decade.

Fortunately, it hasn't been all drama this year. The high point of this year was my trip to France a couple of months ago. I spent 16 days there, beginning in Nice, then over to Paris. I was so happy this trip came to fruition :) My best friend joined me in Paris, during my last week, & we had an absolute blast. I have been planning this trip since I was last in Paris, back in 2004. This trip was everything I had hoped for and that much richer as my love for all things French had grown exponentially during the last 5 years.

Also, though my marriage has suffered its ups and downs (too many downs this last year, unfortunately), we are back on track and our bond is stronger than ever. I would hope so, especially having celebrated our 15th anniversary in August.

As for last year's resolutions, I was able to accomplish a few. I'll probably incorporate the ones I wasn't able to into this year's, as usual.

Without further ado, the year in review, via the resolutions & goals:

I) Firstly, my 2009 resolutions
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1) Run 5-7 times a week
We started a serious gym routine in mid-May & continued faithfully until my trip to France which has since thrown our workout schedule off. We're getting back into our routine next week. Still, the results were very encouraging! I was able to improve my cardio & endurance better than I ever have.

2) Do at least 20 minutes of yoga daily
We usually did approximately 20-30 minutes of stretching & yoga while at the gym though I didn't practice at home. I will be better about that this year.

3) Walk the dogs daily
They get walks but not daily. Definitely another resolution to carry over.

4) Get to bed before 10pm
This one I was very mindful of but not always successful with.

5) Cut down on the alcohol I consume
Ahem.....this one will be carried over into 2010, as well.

6) Cut down on unnecessary spending
I tried, I really did. Definitely better than before. This is one to keep.

7) Walk or ride bike to work
Not so successful with this one. Even though I used to live a few block from work, it was near a very busy intersection & I never felt safe riding my bike there.

8) Think positively and less venomously
A work in progress. I'm hoping that, once I start therapy, I can find some useful tools in dealing with the anger.

9) Write entries in a paper journal daily, even if it's just a sentence
That worked for a couple of weeks. I'm carrying this over.

10) Start a local vegan meet-up with a focus on abolition and community service
Unfortunately, I've been too busy & stressed out this past year to focus on this goal. I'm sure this will be put into action this year.

11) Improve my french lessons
Always a work in progress but I didn't have too many problems in France. I just have to work better at listening to native speakers.

12.) Start the fall semester at FCC
With a promotion at work & a 16-day trip to France in the fall, I decided to skip this year. 2010, for sure!

13) Enjoy my solo trip to Paris next fall
And I did :D

14) Save enough money for an apartment before the spring
Well, maybe not spring but I was gone before the end of August

15) Pay off outstanding debts
I paid off some but not all. Still, better than none!

16) Collect 100 French movies (just 48 to go)
I'm officially at 100 as of last week. This movie is my 100th French dvd.

17) Do not buy anything if I don't have the cash (no credit!!)
This is a keeper.

18) Get insured
Still working on that.

19) Put the 2 most toxic forces in my life out of it completely
Soon!

20) Work on my marriage and bring back the intimacy.
We are stronger than ever but need therapy to deal with family issues.

Of the 100 goals I set up for myself to accomplish, in my lifetime, I realized a few in 2009. Such as:

1) Get my own apartment
5) Eat more healthy
14) Travel back to Paris
15) Ride a Segway in Paris

17) Collect snow globes & ornaments from my travels
23) Learn more about the French culture/history
25) Track down books, cds, toys, & games while in Paris
29) Re-connect with my marriage
41) Keep nails groomed & stop biting them
45) Shop less
46) Incorporate more green practices into my daily life
47) Ride to the top of the Eiffel Tower

57) Swim in the Mediterranean Sea (à la Nice)-->Well, I only made it up to my neck. The day I chose to spend at the beach was a cloudy & cold one.

61) Be satisfied with my self image completely--> I was getting there when we were working out regularly.
63) Never apply for credit again
64) Make more time for my family--> I like to spend my days off with my family
66) Buy a pair of rollerskates & start rollerskating again (not rollerblade) -->my Christmas present to myself
67) Watch less TV-->It helps that we didn't get cable hooked up when we rented our apartment.
70) Eat out less.
71) Stop taking disposable bags from stores & use my cloth ones instead
73) Learn the French way of writing-->Currently learning that now, with the aid of the many cahiers d'ecriture I purchased while in Paris.

75) Take lots of photos (maybe nude?) & blogs while in Paris-->No nude pics or blogging was done on this trip to Paris but I am thinking about going next June. We'll see what happens. Check out my flickr account for the photos.

In conclusion, I won't be making any new resolutions for 2010 but will continue & expand on the ones made last year. And to keep on checking off those 100 goals til none are left!

left to my own devices

2009-11-23T17:59:00.000-08:00

I will generally retreat into my own world and/or online. Today was mostly online. I had the day off, feeling a bit sick, stressing because of my niece & nephew's upcoming birthday bash, and lonely 'cos the mil is taking her vacation this week (which means I won't be seeing my dogs). So, I checked out for a bit. I found a really interesting blog and turned some of my digital pic into "polaroids". Enthralling, I know...